Atau Mungkin Hanya Aku?

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Aku sibuk mencari tanda seru

Kadang ia hilang bersama benaman kepala-kepala yang kita ajak bicara di udara
Hanya dengan cara itu aku bisa mendengar suaramu

Kita dipertemukan di bulan Juni
Pada sisa-sisa angin barat yang menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya
Namun ia rela bertahan demi kita
Langit dan bumi telah berkonspirasi dalam memposisikan arah kaki kita

Sebelumnya aku pergi kemanapun hanya melihat sandaran kebahagiaan yang hilang dan berjalan
Lalu aku melihatmu berjalan kearahku,
Tak ada detak yang terlalu kencang
Tak ada senyum yang terlalu lepas
Kita hanya sembunyi-sembunyi memandang
Aku hanya menduga
Atau mungkin hanya aku

Dua hari ini kita berpapasan pada persimpangan akhir yang hampir menyentuh ujung
Kadang aku mencuri dimensi untuk melihatmu
Kemudian kau pergi dan memiringkan kepalamu
Sehingga ujung mata itu ikut menduga-duga
Atau mungkin hanya dugaanku saja

Ini gila!

Gravitasi telah mempermainkan kita secara horizontal
Kita bertemu dengan cara perhitungan detik yang selalu presisi
Mereka bilang aku terhirup oleh halusinasi
Tapi aku merekam semuanya dalam catatan biru-ku

Ini gila!

Berkali-kali kita dipermainkan jagat raya
Atau mungkin hanya aku yang merasakannya

Bukan aku yang mengendap-endap di belakangmu
Tapi jagat raya
Sudah kubilang padamu, mereka berkonspirasi

Apakah semua hanya terangkum seperti ini, kemudian sudah

Bolehkah kita saling berbicara hanya untuk memastikan apa yang mereka inginkan dari kita?

Boleh?

So Close, So Far

It's Sunday. My blog post lately is kinda serious. From the story of unforgiveable bestfriend, into some photographs about Surabaya. Now, I'm posting about, I don't know. Just skip it if you find this super boring. Basically, I really get the nerves doing thesis. Okay cliche, everything will be just fine, yeah fine. Today is a big day for my bestfriend, who has worried a lot about how future might be, our bestfriend that will step a new path for her new beginning in life, where everything starts here. Hey, congratulation! Just, let's be happy about now and the future.

Once (2007)

Any other thing that bother my mind lately is about mmm, apparently a guy. Well, have you ever met someone that you think "This guy is totally look like me, he's me". Every common things (even just a small things and some coincidental aspects of our life which is identical) we have without talking about it each other. Weird! But it's real. Have you ever watched a movie entitled Once (2007)? The tagline is pretty offensive, haha: How often do you find the right person? The movie tells about a man that accidentally meets a girl on the street, he's a street musician that finally finds out that the girl is really good at piano. They collaborate to lit their dream, recording. Their life is also getting attached to each other. Sweet. In the end they can't be together < spoiler alert. Life is not a fairytale, every ending has its purpose for good sake. That kind of movie gonna teach us how to be a realistic one. But sometimes, when it comes to love, our world goes wild.

Well, Small things about him that just pop up in my mind when I look on to the days we have separately. When I think this is the right one, I wake up, I think again. I'm not ready for him, he's  a way too perfect and too good, I'm not good enough and that's what makes me think that I'm just not ready. So, back again to the movie's tagline and the question is: how many times you find the right ones? This is my first time. I've got my break not being attached and get myself away from weird little thing called love. But, when the tought comes near to you, I feel like I still have my time to see you again when I'm getting better. In otherwise, I can't put my expectation to you. I don't like to expect because I hate wondering an ending. However, hey you! Everyone always wish for a happy ending. But in human being's eyes, we can't see that sometimes a goodbye can be a good thing. And who knows? If we'll get the chance next time. We're gonna be cool, just saying. No matter it is you or not. Let's fly solo now, because those who fly solo have the strongest wing.