“Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won’t know for twenty years. And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it’s what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but it doesn’t really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel whole, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry, and the truth is I feel so fucking sad, and the truth is I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long I’ve been pretending I’m OK, just to get along, just for, I don’t know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own. Well, fuck everybody. Amen.”
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28.7.13
For A Fraction of A Fraction of A Second
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26.7.13
Atau Mungkin Hanya Aku?
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Kadang ia hilang bersama benaman kepala-kepala yang kita ajak bicara di udara
Hanya dengan cara itu aku bisa mendengar suaramu
Hanya dengan cara itu aku bisa mendengar suaramu
Kita dipertemukan di bulan Juni
Pada sisa-sisa angin barat yang menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya
Namun ia rela bertahan demi kita
Langit dan bumi telah berkonspirasi dalam memposisikan arah kaki kita
Pada sisa-sisa angin barat yang menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya
Namun ia rela bertahan demi kita
Langit dan bumi telah berkonspirasi dalam memposisikan arah kaki kita
Sebelumnya aku pergi kemanapun hanya melihat sandaran kebahagiaan yang hilang dan berjalan
Lalu aku melihatmu berjalan kearahku,
Tak ada detak yang terlalu kencang
Tak ada senyum yang terlalu lepas
Kita hanya sembunyi-sembunyi memandang
Aku hanya menduga
Atau mungkin hanya aku
Lalu aku melihatmu berjalan kearahku,
Tak ada detak yang terlalu kencang
Tak ada senyum yang terlalu lepas
Kita hanya sembunyi-sembunyi memandang
Aku hanya menduga
Atau mungkin hanya aku
Dua hari ini kita berpapasan pada persimpangan akhir yang hampir menyentuh ujung
Kadang aku mencuri dimensi untuk melihatmu
Kemudian kau pergi dan memiringkan kepalamu
Sehingga ujung mata itu ikut menduga-duga
Atau mungkin hanya dugaanku saja
Kadang aku mencuri dimensi untuk melihatmu
Kemudian kau pergi dan memiringkan kepalamu
Sehingga ujung mata itu ikut menduga-duga
Atau mungkin hanya dugaanku saja
Ini gila!
Gravitasi telah mempermainkan kita secara horizontal
Kita bertemu dengan cara perhitungan detik yang selalu presisi
Mereka bilang aku terhirup oleh halusinasi
Tapi aku merekam semuanya dalam catatan biru-ku
Gravitasi telah mempermainkan kita secara horizontal
Kita bertemu dengan cara perhitungan detik yang selalu presisi
Mereka bilang aku terhirup oleh halusinasi
Tapi aku merekam semuanya dalam catatan biru-ku
Ini gila!
Berkali-kali kita dipermainkan jagat raya
Atau mungkin hanya aku yang merasakannya
Atau mungkin hanya aku yang merasakannya
Bukan aku yang mengendap-endap di belakangmu
Tapi jagat raya
Sudah kubilang padamu, mereka berkonspirasi
Tapi jagat raya
Sudah kubilang padamu, mereka berkonspirasi
Apakah semua hanya terangkum seperti ini, kemudian sudah
Bolehkah kita saling berbicara hanya untuk memastikan apa yang mereka inginkan dari kita?
Boleh?
4.9.12
Deal with You is No Longer Exist
We all have troubles in life, just admit it. I am the geek who can secretly hide her main trouble to the people around her, including her parents and her bestfriends moreover. But I can't just hide it from myself. Although sometimes I just ask my troubles to have a seat beside me, watching our favorite movies. We can be friends for hours, and becoming villains again for the rest of the day.
Sometimes, don't take everything too seriously in life.
At least, that's all I've learned from the last few months. Go, laugh at yourselves. I do laugh at myself. For having uncommon troubles and desperately hide it because she knows time will change everything. Just like the kids who play football. The ball bounced high up in the air, then it falls again, grounded. And the repetitive movement of the ball is just like our life.
Luckily, when people are falling to the ground. They don't always need two little feet to bounce their body up the air. They can use their own power to change their own direction.
Still looked serious yeah?
Sometimes, how special you are can be measured by how unique your long term troubles are. Let's fight!
23.8.12
Random
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And we pulled down the sky,
So we swam back home,
And we drank our tea slowly
With our garden gnomes,
Do do dodo
If I could design this day
Be me and you in no one's way
If I could design this day
I'd never let it get away
(Forest Eyes-Jinja Safari)
23.2.12
On My Own
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I'm not feel so alone. Well, it's very tipical. Some people usually feel so alone, when they're struggling, then finally surrounded by the crowds, when they finally success/ reach the goal. Human.
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